2 years turned to 4?!
This was my initial reaction to the news that I wasn't accepted into the College of Education for this September (next to crying). We came to Saskatoon thinking we would be here 2 years for me to finish my schooling, and now a year later, we are post-poned yet another year before I even get IN to school to finish. As much as it was a shock for me, it kind of wasn't. I had been emailing with an Advisor during the Application process and long story short she had informed me that this year didn't look that great for me. Now the whole story really is another story in and of itself, but the big picture and truth is that the Lord is stretching myself and Coy through this.
I am looking forward to a year of working here in Saskatoon, but there are thoughts and ideas for our life that I struggle with. School still at 28 years old?! Finishing at 30 years old?! Kids at 30?! Renting a house STILL?!
The Lord has been showing me through this experience that we are not ready. Mine and Coy's plans were not necessarily wrong to make or think, but they were not God's plans. HIS plans are so much greater. I have been learning to trust God more and lean on His understanding not my own. All my worldly goals and ideas about my life are exactly that - a worldly mindset. God is showing me that He is above the world and my thinking should be eternal. Not worrying about the future (Mt 6:34) but to live each day as its own and fully present. The Lord KNOWS why I am not teaching yet and He knows when is best for us to start a family (even if it does start at 30 years old...35...40..) I know the blessings won't be lost and this year will have blessings in itself. This all has given Coy and I an opportunity to step back and remember who God is to us. He isn't a God who just answers our prayers and listens to us, He a loving, tender, kind God who knows the best plan for our lives. He wants to lead us, guide us and use us where we are at. I am sure that this year is a year where God is calling us to surrender our lives fully to Him and His plans.... where we should have been all along.
We are praying for the Lord to show us where we need to be in terms of ministry together this year (and in the future), praying for more growth in our relationship with Him and with each other, and more opportunities to have fellowship and relationships with people in Saskatoon that we haven't had yet. The Lord is good and His mercies are new each day!
awe Laura! I will be praying that God will make it obvious why He still has you guys there. The funny thing is, when we are living in the moment looking at our situation, it can be so stressful and confussing. But when we look back at why God had us where He did, the picture begins to become alot clearer. SO KNOW, that it hard to see know, but if you are trusting and praying... and I know you are, than you can rest-assure you are where you need to be.
ReplyDeleteSO with that said, looking back I remember compliaing sometimes because life did not look exactly how I would do it, and instead of embracing where I was in life, enjoying poeple, work and everything I missed the point because of my anxiousness and whatever.
Anyways, I hope that helps a little. I love you and I will be praying!
I am learning too that it is so easy for us to make our own plans, and have an idea of how our life will turn out, but God will have his own plans regardless of ours, and it is best to embrace God's plans. I am sure, because you sounds so open to do so, God will bless you so much this year with new opportunities, and new friendships as well. I am sure you guys will have an awesome growing year.
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